old and decrepit

I find that I can't walk around barefooted because my feet just disintegrate, particularly my right big toe and my left heel. The flesh becomes scaly and seems to grow gills, which go deep and painful, and I can feel the odd texture when I'm putting the special foot lotion on them, which doesn't seem to be doing any good anymore. Maybe that's because the lotion has gone bad because of the heat. Should I keep my special foot lotion in the refrigerator next to the suppositories?

God, I'm older by the day. This morning, before I climbed completely out of bed, I put antibiotic ointment (plus pain relief) on my big toe and heel, then Heel Balm all over both my feet before covering them with socks to walk across the house to pee and get coffee and face the day. I got a crick in my neck reaching for the lotion. I didn't do anything in particular, nothing unusual or stressful, just reached into the bedside table for the tube of lotion, and crick! So I reached further in, past the homeopathic restless leg inhaler and Calendula creme for the tube of Arnica gel (which my computer doesn't recognize, suggests "Fornicate") and rubbed it into the pain. But really, it just takes time; three days usually. I don't think this has anything to do with not going to yoga for the past month. I think I'm just on the slow but sure downward spiral of adulthood.